Bumps in the road :(

Yes, since my last post, I've had "bumps" in the road. Its okay - I'm learning from them all :) Life is so good and I'm proud of all the positive changes I've made in my life. However, it seems as though there is still "something" deep inside that I run from...that I don't want to "sit" with...that I want to drown out with food and/or alcohol. What is it? It will bring me close to God so I'm going for it - it will just take time for me to figure it out - PATIENCE!! I have to keep reminding myself how much better I feel when I am eating high raw and drinking very little...summer is a hard time for me. There is so much going on, and I feel so overwhelmed with my yard. I will figure it out and just try to stay present.